Trust

 Originally posted on Wordpress 07/06/19


  • Those of you who have read previous posts know I have had the habit for a few years now of choosing a word at the beginning of the year to concentrate on. It works much better for me than resolutions. I always pray for God to reveal the right one and I am amazed at how appropriate the word is for my circumstances. In past years I have chosen; Grace, Intentional, Hope, and this year the word is Trust. Trust sounds like a basic word and an easy concept but it is much more complicated than I realized, and it is tied to every area of my life.
  • There were two things I believed to be true about myself and trust…
    • I am trusting of others
    • I trust God
  • I’ve learned that things are not always as they seem!One of the first things that God has pointed out to me this year is that I do not easily trust people. I have allowed the rejections , and hurts in the past to interfere with being open, and vulnerable in my current relationships. Reading Brene Brown has taught me the importance of being vulnerable and that true, deep , below the surface relationships require vulnerability and risk. God made us to live in community. That is where the growing happens. My lack of trust in others makes me want to isolate myself as a way of protecting my heart.
  • I’m also learning that I don’t trust God as much as I thought. Many concerns and worries all boil down to my lack of trust in his plan.
  • Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.“

    • Romans 8:28 “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”

  • I believe that God always keeps his word. I now see that what I’m afraid of, is that his plan will be differentthan the desires of my heart. Ive heard peopleinterpret the verse in Romans as meaning “we will always get what we pray for, we have not -because we ask not, name it – claim it, suggesting we will not have any struggles, discomfort or pain”. I don’t believe God is saying that at all. He knows best what is good for us, and sometimes the answer is not what we want. We cannot always see what is best in our limited perspective. Ultimately it boils down to Trust. Lysa Terkeurst says she has to remind herself of three things that are true when she is struggling with God’s answers to her prayers. Perhaps he is saying no, or wait.

  • “God is good. God is good to me. God is good at being God.”

    • This is now my mantra every day.

    So far this has been a very “interesting” year and one in which God has been doing some refining in the fire. I am grateful for all the opportunities he has given me to learn how to completely trust him, and then see his faithfulness.

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