Yesterday

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He would have been 79 years old yesterday. It’s been almost eight years now, and sometimes it seems like yesterday, and other times it feels much longer.

There are so many things I would have loved sharing with him since he left us;

The pond has been such a wonderful place to get away from everything. I would love to share with him how much I appreciate this gift, and about our plans for a future there, looking at house plans, and trying to figure out where to put the house.

The situation with mom, and how much I have learned about her, and about myself, as Mike and I care for her. I know Mike would have cherished his encouragement, and the insight dad learned from helping Anita care for Linda.

My struggles to figure out where to fit into my adult children’s lives, trying to remain close, but respecting their space. He did such a good job of giving me the security I needed, without smothering me.

The current world events, and the best way to support others who have lived a very different life than I have. I imagine we would sit at the table with a cup of coffee, and he would say “well, let’s think about this”. He was always careful to give everything great consideration before he spoke. He was the one who helped me to learn about helping. He once asked me “If you give someone a car, and they can’t afford gas, or insurance, have you really helped them”?

He would have enjoyed John Henry, and his great grands so much, as they grow, and learn. I know for sure he would have shared his faith with them, applauded their successes, and supported them in their hard times. 

I miss having someone to discuss my latest book with. It was so much fun to read the same book, and then discuss it. 

Happy birthday in heaven Daddy!

You are missed…❤️

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